The Jesus Novel: Chapter 12.
Tuesday, July 31st, 2007
When Jesus caught up to his disciples, their faces were unsmiling. He fell into step again beside Simon Peter, who drew back to keep from touching him.
Jesus shook his head. “Peter, Peter,” he said, and Simon Peter glanced at him and away, his expression grim. Jesus looked around at the others, none of whom would meet his eyes.
“Does none of you know the benefits of compassion?” he said.
“Master,” said Simon Peter. “Compassion is all very well, but you have endangered us all.”
“What about compassion for us?” Judas said. “Do you have no compassion for your friends?”
“And what calamity has befallen you that you should be the object of compassion?”
Judas’s lips compressed in annoyance, and they walked for a little way in silence. John, tugging at Jesus’ sleeve, said, “Is there no danger of contagion, then?”
Jesus looked at him and sighed. “Very little, I think,” he said.
“You don’t know?” The voice was Judas’s. “You think?” To the others, he said, “He doesn’t know whether he’s exposed himself and all of us to a slow, wasting death.”
“There is a power loosed in the world,” Jesus said. “Wait awhile and see what —”
“Ho!” a voice called in the distance, interrupting him. “Ho there!”
Jesus stopped, and Judas and Simon Peter ran into him. “Hold up,” Jesus said. “Who was that?”
“There,” said John, pointing.
A man’s head appeared coming over a rise behind them, then his shoulders, then his torso. “Ho there,” he called again.
Jesus turned back to meet him, his disciples straggling after him. The man broke into a run, staggering his last few steps and falling to his knees in front of Jesus.
“Master,” he said.
Simon Peter’s eyes had focused on his left foot, where his sandal hung by a single strap. “He’s taken the leper’s clothes,” he said.
The man raised his eyes to Jesus, and a shock passed through Simon Peter’s body and lifted the hairs at the nape of his neck. It was the leper, his blind eye healed, and the pigment in his face miraculously restored. And, though two of the fingers still were missing from the right hand, the sores were gone.
Jesus reached down to grip his shoulder and raise him to his feet. “Greetings, Simeon,” he said.
“Master.”
“You will need to find a priest to examine you and to offer the sacrifices required by Moses.”
“Yes, yes. Of course. Please, sir. Is it permitted to know your name?”
“Jesus, of Nazareth. But I’d like for you not to tell anyone what happened here.”
“Jesus. Of Nazareth,” the man repeated.
“Remember,” Jesus said. “Seek out a priest. Tell no one.”
Simeon nodded. “Of course, of course,” he said. “Thank you. You have saved my life.”
Jesus smiled at him. “Very likely,” he said. “Go on now.”
Simeon leaped to his feet and, after clasping Jesus to him with reckless enthusiasm, took off running along the road ahead of them toward Bethsaida.
“Well,” Jesus said, looking after him. “We had best get on to Bethsaida ourselves.” And he started off.
His disciples followed, but at a distance, and they whispered among themselves.
They were still a mile outside the village when Andrew saw the crowd of people coming toward them. “Look,” he said.
“I don’t guess Simeon kept his good news to himself; what do you think?” Jesus said.
“Does that mean the leprosy will return to him?” John asked him.
Jesus shook his head. “No. Secrecy was a request, not a condition.”
“What are we going to do? If we continue on into Bethsaida, we’ll be mobbed just as we were in Capernaum.”
“Jesus! Jesus of Nazareth,” came a chorus of voices.
“Let’s get off the road. This way,” Jesus said. But as they left the road, the people coming from Bethsaida toward them broke into a dog-trot. There seemed to be about fifty of them.
Jesus and his disciples angled across the broken ground toward the Sea of Galilee, already visible below them. Simon Peter said, “If we can stay ahead of the crowd for perhaps ten minutes, we can be at my boat, if by some miracle it’s still where I left it.”
“Then I guess we’d better stay ahead of the crowd,” Jesus said. He broke into a run, gathering up his robe and his tunic to keep from tripping over them.
“Master,” Peter called, pounding after him. “This hardly accords with the dignity of a prophet.”
Nathaniel, breaking into a run himself, laughed out loud.
“There’ll be nothing dignified about what will happen if they catch us,” Jesus said.
Simon the Zealot passed Jesus and Simon Peter, his robe flying and his long legs pumping. The cries of the crowd grew louder, not quite masking the more immediate sounds of the disciples’ labored breathing and the slap of their sandals on the hard, sandy ground. They reached the shore of the lake and turned along it toward Simon Peter’s boat, now visible in the distance.
“We’re going to make it,” Simon Peter huffed between gasps as John and James and James the younger passed him. “We’re going to make it.” And they did, piling into the boat head-first and feet first, James and John splashing into the water with Simon Peter to push off.
When they were about twenty yards off shore, Jesus said, “Drop the anchor.”
The crowd was gathering along the shoreline, a few splashing in but none making a serious pursuit. “The crowd’s grown. There have to be a hundred of them,” said John.
“Men of Israel,” Jesus called, standing up in the boat and nearly upsetting it before recovering his balance. “Men of Israel, whom do you seek?”
One of the men on shore, a young man, called, “The one who healed Simeon the leper.”
Another said, “Jesus of Nazareth.”
“You have found him,” Jesus said. “I am Jesus. What do you want of me?”
The question produced a general hubbub, each man turning to his neighbor to confer. Finally, a voice rose above the rest. “Bless us, Master,” it said.
“In what way are you in need of a blessing?”
“I am poor,” cried a voice.
“I’m hungry,” cried another, a woman. “I slave and struggle to keep food on the table for my son and myself, and still there is not enough.”
“My wife is dead.”
“Who among you is poor?” Jesus cried, holding up his arm.
A dozen hands were raised.
“Blessed are you who are poor,” Jesus said.
“Will you fill our purses?” There was general laughter, and Jesus smiled.
“No, I have not the means to do that.”
“Then what is the good of your blessing?”
“Though I can’t fill your purses with coin, I can give you something infinitely better.” He raised a hand, palm outward. “Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you who hunger, for you shall be satisfied, if not physically, then spiritually, which is more important.”
“Such cant,” Judas said in an undertone. “I’ll be surprised if they don’t stone the boat.”
Jesus’ head turned a fraction of the way toward him, but his words, when he spoke, were addressed to the crowd. “Is there no blessing to be found in poverty and hunger? There is so much suffering: Is it all meaningless? No. Just as your arm may be strengthened by the strain of toil, just as gold is refined by fire, so your character is formed in the crucible of suffering. Without it we are all fat toads, self-satisfied, cruel, and self-indulgent.”
“What about my wife?” called the widower. “Did sickness consume her so as to improve my character?”
There was a scattering of laughter, but Jesus ignored it.
“And hers, perhaps. The path to God is not an easy one. Your wife toiled, and she suffered —” He paused, almost as if listening. “And she sits today in God’s own presence, and angels minister to her needs.”
Silence. “I miss her,” the man said at last, his voice so choked with emotion that it almost failed to carry to the boat.
“Yes, I know. You mourn, and you will be blessed by it. Though it seems impossible, the time will come when you will again laugh.”
“Bless me,” called another. Jesus recognized him.
“A blessing on you, Dothan,” Jesus said. “Blessed are you when people hate you, when they exclude you and insult you. Rejoice, for great is your reward in heaven.”
In the following silence, Dothan looked with some embarrassment at those around him, but everyone was focused on Jesus. Someone called, “Instruct us, Rabbi,” and a chorus of voices took up the cry.
“You want me to tell you how to live? Moses has given you the law, has he not? Why don’t you obey it?”
He looked from face to face, but no one answered him. “Is it because the law seems cold and lifeless to you?” He pointed to a man dressed in purple linen. “Nathan,” he said.
“Me?”
“You. Would you have the Lord as a living, breathing presence in your life?”
“Of course, Rabbi.”
“Sell what you have, and give the proceeds to the poor. You heard me bless the poor. There is a dark side to the blessing: You are rich; if you cling to your riches, then you have already received all the comfort you will ever have. You are well-fed, but the day is coming when you will be hungry indeed. You laugh now, but one day you will mourn and weep.”
Nathan’s face flushed a dark red. “I come seeking a blessing, and instead you give me a curse?”
“The curse was yours already. I give you the chance to exchange it for a blessing.”
“It’s not a chance, but an ultimatum.”
“What greater prize could there be than the kingdom of heaven?”
Nathan turned away. “Go to hell,” he muttered audibly.
There was a silence, Jesus looking from face to face among the crowd. “I offer the blessing to each of you,” he said. “Would you be perfect, even as your father in heaven is perfect? Love your enemies. Do good to them that hate you; bless them that curse you; pray for them that mistreat you. If someone slaps you, turn to him the other cheek. If someone takes your cloak, give him your tunic as well. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Treat everyone just as you would want to be treated yourself.”
“Not our enemies, surely!”
Jesus smiled at the one who had spoken.
“It makes no sense, you say. Let me ask you: if you love just the people who love you, what special service have you done to God? Everyone loves those who love them, every Gentile, every tax collector, every villain. If you are good only to those who have been good to you, how are you different from anybody else? If you lend only to those who can repay you, what have you done? Even the most corrupt among us lend out money expecting to be repaid. But love your enemies; do good to them; lend without expecting to receive anything in return . . .”
“And then what?”
“Yes, what then?”
“If you do these things, your reward will be great. You will be sons of the Most High God, who is Himself kind to the ungrateful and to the wicked. God has given you much; it is only thus — by doing something you don’t have to do, by doing a kindness you don’t even want to do — that you can return to him something of what he has given you.”
He talked to them for a total of less than an hour, but they were big themes for him, themes he would return to again and again. When he was done, he gestured for Simon Peter to raise anchor and head out onto the Sea of Galilee. He himself sat heavily on the bench in the bow of the boat.
“You look tired,” John said to him.
Jesus smiled at him. “Do I?”
“The preaching takes energy from you just as the healing does.”
“I think you’re right,” Jesus said. “I think I’ll take a nap.”
“Where are we going?” Simon Peter asked. “Hadn’t you better tell us that first?”
“Back to Capernaum? If we get there after dark, we can make our way to Levi’s house easily enough. How would you feel about a slew of houseguests, Levi?”
“I’d be honored.” He cleared his throat, conscious of the unsmiling faces around him. “I wonder if I could go by the name Matthew from now on. You all know what my past is — I know there are some of you that can never forgive me for it —” He deliberately avoided looking at either of the Judeans, Judas or Simon. “I’d like to make a break with the past.”
“Why the name Matthew?”
Levi looked at James, the son of Zebedee, who had asked the question. “It was my father’s name.”
“Matthew, then,” Jesus said. “Very good.” He slipped out of his cloak and began to fold it. “Can someone wake me when we reach our destination?” He lay down along the bench, his arm and the folded cloak pillowing his head. The arm of the cloak he draped across his face, shielding it from the light.
James and John, Simon Peter’s old fishing partners, helped with the sail. “Those clouds are coming from the west,” James said to Simon Peter. “We’re going to be sailing right into them.”
“We’ll make it.” The wind caught the sail, and Simon Peter leaned back on the rope to hold the slender mast upright.
“If you say so.” Simon Peter, a good fisherman, was the best boatman on the Sea of Galilee. James had seen him cutting through waves choppy enough to have swamped him and John and Zebedee, leaning far over the side of his boat to balance his mast, his silhou¬ette visible through the lashing rain against the occasional flash of lightning as he ran ahead of the storm.
The wind changed abruptly on them, whipping the boom across the boat so fast that it caught John in the back of the head and sent him sprawling.
“It’s taking us out to sea,” James said as Simon Peter dropped the rope that held up the sail. The wind, though, had filled the sail and kept it from dropping. Simon Peter gripped the canvas, pulling at it, lifting himself off his feet in his effort to lower the sail.
“Little help,” he called, and James and Andrew gripped the sail beside him. They got it down, and the waves turned the boat broadside, rolling it with each swell.
“Look,” James said, pointing.
Rain was sweeping toward them like a dark curtain, dimpling the surface of the waves, the shore invisible beyond it.
“Uh oh,” someone said.
“‘Uh oh’ is right.” Simon Peter gripped the rudder and, grimac¬ing with the strength of the effort, turned the boat into the waves. A few large, cold droplets fell about them, and then the rain was coming down in sheets, plastering their robes and tunics to their bodies and their hair to their heads. Simon Peter found it impossible to guide the boat; the best he could do was to keep it from founder¬ing. “We’ll have to ride it out.”
“Can we ride it out?”
A flash of lightning illuminated the clouds above them. One second passed, then two. Thunder crashed down, loudly enough that even Simon Peter flinched.
“We’re pretty exposed out here,” he said.
Another flash of lighting and another blast of thunder — this time only a second apart. A wave broke over the side of the boat, which kept turning against the waves despite Simon Peter’s best efforts with the rudder.
James gestured toward Jesus, only just visible through the dark rain. “How can he sleep through this?”
The Judeans were no sailors. “We’re going to die out here,” called Simon the Zealot, half-standing, staggering this way and that like a drunkard as he made his way toward the bow of the boat. “Master, we’re all going to die.”
Lightning blinded them, and the thunder was simultaneous. Simon clutched at Jesus’ tunic. “Master, wake up. Wake up. Don’t you even care that we’re all about to die?”
Jesus swung his legs off the bench, freeing his head from his cloak and making an effort to sweep the sudden deluge of water from his face as he sat up. The rain was a gray mist, obscuring the vision and numbing the ears as it drubbed against the planks of the boat. The crack of wood sounded from the back of the boat as the rudder broke off in Simon Peter’s hands.
Jesus stood up, swaying precariously with the wild rocking of the boat, and he stepped up onto the bench on which he’d been resting. A jag of lightning touched the water, roiling and foaming about them, and it suffused the lowering clouds with light. Jesus, stretching out his arms, was silhouetted against the luminescent sky as the thunder blasted overhead and the rain beat down on their upturned faces.
“Abba,” he shouted. “Father.” He sounded happy, even delighted. “Thanks be to you who gives to the son of man all dominion over the animals that slither and burrow and run —” He staggered, nearly pitching overboard. “— over the fish of the sea, over the very elements themselves.”
A wave broke over the side of the boat, half-filling it, and Jesus fell backward into the boat. “Peace,” he called out, raising an arm, laughing. “Be still.”
“He’s gone mad.” The voice belonged to Judas, who was floundering with the others through the water in the bottom of the boat, his grasping hands seeking purchase as the waves broke over the side.
Jesus, regaining his feet, turned toward them. “Peace,” he said to them. “Peace, be still.”
The wild light faded from the sunken eyes of Simon the Zealot. Jesus waded through the knee-deep water and helped Judas to his feet. The boat seemed to be rocking less violently now, perhaps because of the stabilizing effect of all the water in the bottom. A golden light lit up the sky behind Jesus’ head, a calmer, steadier glow than the lightning. John and his brother James turned to see the sun shining through a rift in the clouds. Within minutes the sea was calm, even glassy, its surface undisturbed by the merest ripple.
“Good God,” Simon Peter said, looking out on it.
“Don’t be profane,” said Nathaniel automatically, helping Andrew and James with the daunting task of bailing out the boat.
“I wasn’t being profane. I said God was good, and I meant it.”
Jesus, smiling, reached out to lay a wet hand on Peter’s head in benediction. “He is good.”
“I have to say I agreed with Judas for a minute,” Simon the Zealot said, looking at Jesus. “I thought you’d taken leave of your senses.”
“When instead I was enjoying them to the fullest.”
“How could you —”
“Because I love weather.”
“Good weather,” James said. “At least that’s what I like.”
“Ah, but God made the rain and the lightning just as he made the wind and the sun.”
“And too much of any will kill you as sure as drowning,” said Simon Peter.
Jesus laughed.
“What just happened?” began James the younger, looking around at the others. He felt the conversatiohn had strayed far wide of the point. “Did he or didn’t he —” He broke off. Jesus was looking at him and grinning broadly.
“Well?” James asked him.